Question:
Here is my situation,
My girlfriend used coke every weekend, and often during weekdays.
She has batteled her addiction for more than 5 years. Recently,
through a friend she was introduced to crystal meth, and has began
smoking crystal (ice?) about as often.
Not only did she have a coke problem, but also a weight problem.
Please understand that I love her and I'm not the type of person
who would leave her because she was over-weight, I love voluptouse
women :)
Anway, back to the story, in the last year, she has gained approx
50lb. She would use coke, and the next day, binge on food. She kept
her coke addiction from me at the begining, or perhaps it wasn't as
severe. I never really knew how bad it was... She could not go on
for more than a few days without using coke. She would withdraw and
become paranoid for hours and hours, then cry and ask for help, but
every time I'd try to help her, she would tell me she would be ok,
and that she would get it under control. I've gone through 6 to 7
months of this.
About a couple of weeks ago, she really began to live cleaner, and
healthy. By that I mean that she slowed down her abuse, on the
weekends
only, and once in a while on a day off from work on a weekday. I
believe
her, that she wants to kick her addiction and lose weight. I've told
her
her weight is not a major problem, its her coke habbit that I have a
major problems with.
So... a few weeks ago, one of her friends, a co-worker, introduced her
to
smoking crystal meth. She tells me that it has helped her to eat less,
get
a better high than coke, and not come down as hard. Through smoking
crystal
not only will she be able to kick her coke habbit, but will also help
her
lose weight...
She smoked crystal this Wednesday, Friday, and tonight Sunday...
tonight I
told her my concerns. I told her that she was trading one addiction
with another, that once she had lost weight, what would happen than,
how would she be able to handle her crystal habit, I really dont know
if smoking crystal is addicting, and if it is, is it a chemical
addiction, or a psychological addiction.
Her reply was that her friend was helping her! I blew up and told her
that
wasn't any form of help, I told her how disgusting and heart broken it
was
to hearing her flick that lighter in the other room, and picture her
sucking
on of glass pipe. I saw her expression, and know that I've crushed
her.
I toned down my responses, to make her understand that I wasn't there
to
attack her, I expressed my concerns about her becoming addicted to
another narcotic.I appologized to her, and she replyed with that the
she understood why I reacted the way I did, and that she had also
considered these things. I told
her I felt terrible for acting the way I did, but that she had a
problem.
Writing this in my room, alone, I feel my heart just torn... I'm not
only
hurt by her method of 'fixing' her addiction, but also that I know
what can
possibly happen after some time. She will trade her addiction.
Tell me of your experience, and if a friend could have helped you...
and
what sort of help did you need.
I want to help her, I dont want to lose her.
Answer:
Many of you will throw rocks and bottles at me but after many, many years of
active addiction I'll take the abuse. Dear Lost, If you love her and want
her better get her into treatment, coke and meth are strong meds and with
her weight problem she'll probably have a heart attack while shes' using.
The meth, if shes smoking or shooting will blow her heart up right b4 your
eyes. If there's a chance that you can get her off the drugs then you'll
hate your self if you don't try and get her help. It only works for a small
percentage of people. But thats a step you should take.
Didn't work for me but then, I'm not her
